ONE NIGHT



The pain of rejection made me sleepless. The heart that was burdened with tonnes of love for her, was now shattered into pieces. I took four shots of vodka, hoping that the numbness would fade away the pain but it didn't. I put on my sweater and decided to take a stroll in the night. The church bell struck twelve. The sound of the bells disturbed the serenity of the midnight hour. The chilling wind brushed my hair and it partly eased the agony of my distressed heart. I passed across the lonely streets and the untouched graveyards. I cursed myself for the feelings I had for her. Somehow I felt the need to hate her. I really had to, or else I would ruin myself with this pain. After a walk for 40 minutes I felt no pain. I was filled with a strange numbness. 

As I proceeded along the dusty paths, I saw a shadowy figure completely dressed in black. I could make out from the robes that it was a woman. She rested her slender body against a banyan tree. Her lips wore a deep red color. The frills of her long hair seemed stunningly gothic with majestic curls at the ends. Few strands of her hair hovered over her, partly hiding the magnificence of her beautiful face. A black eyelining decorated her deep dark eyes. An intense stare from the depth of her eyes gave me an ecstatic thrill. I walked away from her wondering about the upsurge of emotions from within. As I distanced from her, the instincts within me started an uproar, urging me to go back to her. Her beauty was enchantingly exotic that I had completely forgotten about my love and rejection. Probably this is the woman's power of seduction. She was extremely unique. Her beauty was one of a kind that which is totally unreal. She was a woman who can be seen only in a man's wildest dreams. 

I couldnt help myself from tracing back steps towards her. I even doubted that this was an illusion probably because the vodka started to sink in. I got closer to the banyan tree only to find that she was still in there with the same seductive look on her face and in the same posture leaning over the tree. Something made me think that she felt the same way I did. Words didn't flow, neither from her nor from me. Before I could make a move, she moved closer. Her tightly shut lips opened up. Good and bad. Sin and evil. Nothing worried me. I completely surrendered myself to the brutal violent force. This was the verge of resistance and I too closed into her. Something weird happened and I felt a strange pain on my neck. And that was the last thing I remember. By the time I woke up, I was lying down on the lonely street. I desperately tried to recollect what had happened. Was it a dream??. Was it an illusion??. Was I drunk??. With all these questions in mind I started walking towards home. The clock showed 5.00 am and I saw a small troop of people heading for a morning walk. As I saw the bunch of people, a strong current overwhelmed me and I plunged into them within a fraction of second. By the time I realized what I was doing, it was too late. I WAS THIRSTY FOR MORE BLOOD. 

PS: I like to be a part of my creative world. That is the reason why I use the word "I" all over the post. So, don't mistake it to be my story. Because I am not a vampire, I don't drink vodka and yes, I am positive that I wouldn't get rejected by a woman. ;-)

TAGGED

I was tagged by Nethra..So here I am answering 40 random questions about myself..I have also tagged five of my blogger friends hoping that they would continue the tag chain..:)

1. What is your current obsession?
A. Blogging..I must probably add keyboard too..

2. What are you wearing today?
A. Spykar shirt and jeans...Spykar suits me well..

3. What's for dinner today?
A. I lost track of what I eat after tasting hostel food..

4. What's the last thing you bought?
A. Coke tin..I love coke..

5. What are you listening to right now?
A. One of rahman's latest composition aaromale from a tamil film called "Vinayathandri varuvaya"..

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?
A. It's a very kind gesture of Nethra to tag me..Inspite of being a very famous blogger, she takes time to read mine..She is a very loyal reader and a great blogger..kudos to nethra..:)

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
A. Any place in the world where it snows..

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?
A. Cool drinks..fruit juices..energy drinks..etc..

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
A. I would explore the untouched paths on the mystic mountains of Himalayas..

10. Which language do you want to learn?
A. Sanskrit

11. What’s your favourite quote?
A. Not one but there are two quotes that haunt me..
1) "Donot walk as if you are the king, walk as if you dont care who the king is"..
2) "You never know how strong you are, until being strong is the only option left for you in life"..

12. Who do you want to meet right now?
A. The great Himalayan masters..

13. What is your favourite color?
A. Black..Black and Black..I dont really bother about how others dress but if someone wears black, It will surely surely surely catch my attention..

14. Give us 3 styling tips that work for you.
A. 1) Style is an inherent quality not an adapted one..So dont make a fool of yourself by imitating others..
2) Be confident..Even if you wear a shirt inside out, people will call it fashion when you are confident..
3) Show attitude only if you have it..Else, you will be the laughing stock..

15. What is your dream job?
A. If the politics were replaced by the earlier rule of the kings..I would dream of a king's job..Be it women, or be it life..Power drives me a lot..

16. What’s your favorite magazine?
A. I dont read magazines..

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
A. I would convert it into Indian currency first..:P

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
A. anything gaudy..

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?
A. Shahrukh khan..I see no style in him..

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
A. I loved the long hair that I had in my 12th std..I love it when my hair hovers on my ears and tickles my neck..:)

21. What are you going to do after this?
A. I might write an other post for my philosophy blog..

22. What are your favorite movies?
A. Not one but many..Dont have the patience to list them out..:)

23. What inspires you?
A. Power..

24. What do your friends call you most commonly?
A. moah..

25. Would you prefer coffee or tea?
A. Coffee...I am addicted to it..

26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
A. I listen to death metal..

27. What makes you go wild?
A. Insult..

28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
A. All the blogs that I follow..

29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
A. Basundi..One sweet that I love the most..

30. How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?
A. my two blogs..facebook..twitter..gmail and meebo..total six..

31. Favorite Season?
A. Winter and Rainy seasons..

32. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me?
A. Sorry!! I dont even know where the kitchen is in my home..

33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
A. There is no point in avoiding..Tit for tat is the way..Hurt them 100 times more until they realize the truth of karma..When they finally realize their mistake, forget, forgive and love them..:)

34. What are you afraid of the most?
A. Death..

35. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
A. I must shave my beard..

36. What brings a smile on your face instantly?
A. I smile instantaneously when people praise me..

37. A word that you say a lot?
A. "lite mama"..

38. When was the last time you did something nice?
A. It was ages since I did something nice..In my 12th std, I was trying to catch a running bus because I was getting late for something..When I was running, an old lady asked me to help her cross the road..I ignored her and continued running..Finally I got into the bus..Out of instinct, I got down the running bus again and went back to help the old lady..This was one of the nicest things that Ive done..:)

39. What would you do if you were made President of India for one day?
A. I would probably do my best to run a corruption free govt atleast for a single day in the Indian history..

40. Do you Know who Master SHIFU is?
A. NO..

Here is the tag list of few of my blogger friends..So friends pls try to continue the chain..No compulsion though..:)

AARTI
SIVAARCHANA
TRISHNANTA
NALINI
THE SOLITARY KID
ROHIT

BEHIND THE SCENES


We often come across many people in this world..Few of them are insignificant and few of them remain significant in our lives..And we call those significant ones as FRIENDS..I was just wondering what is the underlying phenomena of making friends with a person..After having analysed few friendships I was amazed to see that a significant proportion of the them have a selfish motive behind..Oh my goodness have a look at these contexts which I came across, a number of times when it comes to making friends..

--> An entity X is friends with an entity Y because Y is popular among a certain group of entities..There exists an entity Z that is known to Y..Entity X uses Y as an opportunity to open up doors of conversation with entity Z..(This we see often..Specially when X and Z are of opposite genders..)

--> An entity X is friends with an entity Y because Y studies well..By being friends with Y, X assumes that Y will probably play a significant role in moulding his/her career or in accomplishing short term goals in technical aspects..(This part of the shit is what I hate the most..)

--> An entity X is friends with entity Y because Y is rich..By being friends with a rich Y, X assumes that life is jill-jill-jinga..X can have all the fun when Y is around because Y pays for X always and spends money for him/her..(Trust me, such people do exist..)

The list actually goes on and on..We are living in a highly socialized society where most of the friendships we see around us are predominantly driven by selfishness..Just question yourself..Why is he/she your friend??..Because he/she helps me??..or because he/she is fun to be around??..If your answers sound like this, then surely you need to work out on your friendships..Friendship never finds an answer for the above question..That is because a true friendship or bond is never based on logical reason..And such friendships are very few..Just try to analyze yourself to get a feel of this..Just close your eyes and question yourself, "Who are all my friends??"..The few names that spontaneously pop out of your brain stack are your true friends and the rest are just acquaintances rather than friends..You need to dig your brain harder to remind yourself of these acquaintances..

People often question me about why I restrict myself to a limited number of friends..They often consider this aspect of not opening up as socially awkward..Well, I really wonder..Being socially open to all may fetch you many so-called-friends but the point is how many of them are truly friends..Supposing that a very socially outgoing person claims to have 100 friends..Say after 20 years or so, would that person even bother to give a damn about these 100 friends of him/her??..Mostly no..Because at that time he would be socially moving along with a different set of 100 people and would probably claim them as friends(again)..So is this a friendship or a business contract of just being together for a short span of time??..This is why I actually limit myself to a lesser number of friends..I would opt for not having a friend rather than calling a selfish relation as friendship..But those friends of mine who were successful in building a golden pathway into the depths of my heart are the ones whom I will never forget in the course of life and will always cherish the moments I spend with them..When I consider a person as a friend, I would go to any extent for the sake of the bond that I share with them, even if it demands to turn against the world..Their pain becomes my pain..Their happiness becomes my happiness..It is an inbuilt behavior of mine that I care tooooo much about my close friends..In fact this attribute of mine also restricts me in making a bigger circle of friends..If I were having a few dozens of good friends, then it would almost mean like carrying half the world on my shoulders..Thank god I dint..:)

I just hope to remain the same even if people brand me as "socially awkward"..I also pray god to save the souls of those who fall into those entity categories X and Y that I had mentioned so that I would not bother to blog about them again..:P :)And yeah!!This post is dedicated to all those precious friends of mine..On the final note, a loving quote to all my loving friends that Ive made in life..

"Yesterday brought the beginning, tomorrow brings the end, but somewhere in the middle we've become best of friends.." LOVE U ALL..:)

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